Reflections on Mother's Day

As I reflect on this day known as Mother's Day my mind is swimming.

"Thoughts meander like the restless wind inside a letter box..."
I have so much to say. I have so many thoughts blowing around up there.
Now as I try to come up with a good post I wonder if I should write about all the great mothers I know starting with mine and going through all my sisters and then adding my mother in law and then my sister in laws but it overwhelms me to think about it all.
Let me just say they are all wonderful and amazing women and mothers.
Their influence is felt in my life daily.
They touch my heart continually.
They teach me regularly.
I am forever grateful to be surrounded by such tremendous women.

Now, let me just say to my mom "I LOVE YOU!"

I do not live near my mother. We are actually as far away from each other as we can be and still remain in the same country. I always feel her love though.
I remember a specific time when I needed her the most and felt her love absolutely span thousands of miles and settle around my weak and grieving soul.
I am taller and larger than her, but she can completely surround me with her tender, loving arms and provide the comfort and calm that I need. She has caught me and held my battered heart as it poured out sorrow and pain. She has rejoiced and embraced me as my heart has poured out joy and gratitude.
I don't feel like I am getting the words out that I want.
I just know that she is a wonderful mother. I have so many great memories of her throughout the years. She has been a tremendous strength and force for good in my life. She has a testimony of the Savior and of the truthfulness of the gospel. She has been a great example to me and enriches my life everyday. I am truly blessed to have her as my mother.



Now to the other wonderful mother in my life, "I LOVE YOU!"

I am truly blessed to have a mother-in-law that I get along with so well. She is an example of strength to me and a very giving and kind person. She is a convert to the church. She joined when she was a teenager and has had an unwaivering testimony ever since. She raised 5 wonderful children 1 of which is my husband. How can I ever thank her for the gift she has given me in her son, whom I love with every fiber of my being?
We do live close to her and she has done SO much for us all these years. She has given so freely of her time and means to help us, she has continually opened her door (and her fridge) to us. She has welcomed me into her family with open arms and a welcoming heart. (She is also non-judgmental of me when my house isn't spic n' span.)
I am truly grateful that she is a part of our lives.


Now onto the most emotional and difficult to express of my feelings.

ME as a MOTHER
to this beautiful and amazing miracle!

I am overcome with gratitude. My heart if full of JOY. My eyes are streaming tears as I sit here and think of my little EVE. She is a miracle. She is sleeping in the bassinet right next to me and I am in awe. All day today I have been so emotional. What a special "MOTHER'S DAY" for me.
I can't even begin to express the feelings in my heart. I have waited 7 Mother's Days to finally hold my own baby in my arms and be called a real "mom."
My sweet friend emailed me tonight and said, "Also, I meant to tell you this at church, I'm so glad you're a mom this year. I hope you had a great day"
My sister called and left this message, "Hey bec, it's Rachel, I just wanted to call and wish you a HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY...FINALLY..."
I had so many people wish me a happy mother's day and I know they know how special this year is for me. I can feel it.
I still feel it.
I am overcome.

What more can I say?